When Zen master Fa-ch'an was dying, a squirrel screeched on the roof.
It's "just this" he said, "and nothing more."
It's all good...
Come here,
my baby Paul,
come here,
have some warm cookies,
with cold chocolate milk.
It is alright,
It’s alright.
It’s fine if you are upset.
it’s perfectly good.
Come here,
be warm.
Come here,
let me comfort you.
have some warm cookies and milk.
It’s all good.
there is nothing wrong.
Don’t worry about vegetables,
or anything else.
Just these nice warm chocolate chip cookies,
As many as you want.
just relax.
enjoy.
Come here,
my little Paul,
there is nothing to be afraid of.
It’s all good.
Just come here,
sit with me,
have some warm cookies,
as much milk as you are thirsty for.
Relax,
take a nap if you want to.
It’s all good...
—Paul Shreeman
The Old Woman Potter
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| Kim Mosley |
Note: The AZC Zen Writing Group used our friend Silas's story for our prompt. Silas, living in Kenya, is the newest member of our group.
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Today on my way from school, i met a strong old woman with donkey carrying many pots.i ask her where she was taking the pot and she replied that she was going to sell them in the market tomorow. i ask her again how she made the donkey to kneel down and puts on the pots because donkey sometimes turn wild to people.she replied that donkey needs training inorder to cary any load.
I also ask her how she made pot and it was very interesting to hear how the make the pots. The old woman told me that they walk far along river Nyalbari to dig and pick soil for making pots. reaching home with soil she remove any sticks or grass which can harm their hand. she ensure that the soil is fine.she puts the soil on any polythene and mix it with water to make ready for kneeding.
She wrap it with this polythene for sometimes or may be later for use.
She start making the pot with this soil.after completing kneeding the pot she left it for one or two weeks to dry up.
As they dry up, she looks dry grass which she wil use to cure it to make them strong.
After one to two weeks she will put grass inside this pots and lit fire.
She told me that they add grass gradualy untill inside the pot becomes red in colour.at this point she leaves them to cool hence she finish making the pot.
I finaly told her that i have agood friend of mine from america making and teaching how to make pots. She was very much hapy with me and told me to say hi to Linda.
She request me to visit him and see how she is making pots.
—Silas
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In my middle twenties I moved to Colorado and lived in a teepee on land that belonged to some friends. It was a beautiful place with different vistas to be seen by merely turning one way then another.
We tried to emulate the Indians by taking advantage of the native plants, hunting, fishing and storing food. I'll admit that I wasn't very good at these things but I tried and would encourage those around me that possessed these skills.
I tried once to hand work a piece of cowhide to make a vest for winter. It still had the hair on it when I started and still had the hair on it when I gave up and went looking for the cow so I could return it and apologize.
Over time I really came to respect how much effort went into merely surviving before electricity and mechanization gave us our comfort level of today.
I did learn some basic skills however, like observing nature, fire building and how to be resourceful with basic tools.
Sometimes we would help the old timers that were still left with their farm work and learn from them about tracking, weather shifts and the habits of elk, deer and cattle. Their stories would unknowingly show how how damned tough these people had been in their youth and how little it took to make a life.
Whenever the conversation turned to how I and my friends were living in teepees, school buses and drafty wood heated cabins their response, to a man, would be "Why would you want to do that?"
I guess we did it to find a part of ourselves that valued history over progress and knowledge over comfort.
—Robert Porter
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I made pots from natural clay in a workshop at Esalen. We dug up the clay, just like Silas talked about in his post from Kenya. We set our clay to dry for future classes, however, and used clay earlier classes had dug. I spent most of my time making a small bowl with a bent-over edge. I wanted to do it as carefully as I could so I could use it as an incense burner on my altar. I smoothed the outside with an agate. We fired our pots in a pit (or it may have been a half-pit dug into a slope). We burnt oak down to coals, then put the pots on the coals, and covered it over with layers of cow patty.
The bowl came out a rusty clay color mottled with black. I use it on my altar and burn incense in it every day.
After I made that slow, careful pot, I did several quickly and with abandon. One was a bowl I wrapped around a wave-smoothed rock. The rock and bowl stayed as one unit for a long time—in fact, the rock could not be removed—until I broke the pot by accident.
In another pot-making session we sat in the surf on loose pebbles. We were actually halfway in the water, with water coming up over our legs. I worked quickly to make the head of a god. He had snake-like hair with shells and twigs and seaweed in it. I pressed shells and ribbed kelp into the wet clay to leave their imprint, but I also put real seaweed and sticks in the hair. They would burn up when it was fired, but I thought maybe I could replace them later in the spaces that were left behind.
I was concerned that the head might fall apart when fired because I was patching together many small bits of clay as I worked and there was no way to smooth them together. I felt inspired, that flow of easy energy.
I loved the head but never got to see if it fell apart or what it looked like or to have it as an object. We were expected at my mother's in Texas, and the firing was delayed just long enough that my daughter and I had to leave for the airport without the objects from the last firing. As it was, I never drove as fast and recklessly as I did to the airport to the San Jose airport. When we got there we tossed our keys to the rental car people and ran through the airport. We just made it before they closed the door on the airplane.In a way, it's best that I didn't see the completed head. It will remain in my mind as it was when it was being made—glistening clay, the seaweed and shell tangled in the tendrils of the hair, all of it coming out of my hands and the water boiling up into my lap—the god making itself.
—Sarah Webb
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When I was a kid in Oregon, I used to run a burro rink. Kids would come, usually with their parents, and they'd give me 25¢ to put them on a burro and let the burro trod around in a circle eight times. The littlest kids I'd strap on, and sometimes either I or a parent would walk around with the kid, especially if they started to cry. The best part of the job is that girls would come and talk with me. In those days this was a poor little town and there weren't any planned activities for kids. I earned $2 a day and managed to save most of it. It was a great job until the state of Oregon intervened and enforced rules about how old we'd have to be to work and what we should be paid.
We were told that burros were a mix of a donkey and a mule, or something like that. I see from Wikipedia that a burro is just a small donkey. In those days, it was difficult to validate all the things we were told. There was a small library in the town, and perhaps they had some old donated encyclopedia. But I never though of looking up all the stuff people would tell me to check out what they said.
For years I believed that water goes down a drain in one direction, and south of the equater it goes down in the opposite direction. I taught this to my students for over thirty years when they were rocking trays in the darkroom. “Notice how the water swirls in the tray. If you were south of the equader it would....” Lo and behold someone recently told me that was a stupid wife's tale. Like the origin of burros, the truth is not what one cowboy tells you.
—Kim Mosley
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When I was a kid in Oregon, I used to run a burro rink. Kids would come, usually with their parents, and they'd give me 25¢ to put them on a burro and let the burro trod around in a circle eight times. The littlest kids I'd strap on, and sometimes either I or a parent would walk around with the kid, especially if they started to cry. The best part of the job is that girls would come and talk with me. In those days this was a poor little town and there weren't any planned activities for kids. I earned $2 a day and managed to save most of it. It was a great job until the state of Oregon intervened and enforced rules about how old we'd have to be to work and what we should be paid.
We were told that burros were a mix of a donkey and a mule, or something like that. I see from Wikipedia that a burro is just a small donkey. In those days, it was difficult to validate all the things we were told. There was a small library in the town, and perhaps they had some old donated encyclopedia. But I never though of looking up all the stuff people would tell me to check out what they said.
For years I believed that water goes down a drain in one direction, and south of the equater it goes down in the opposite direction. I taught this to my students for over thirty years when they were rocking trays in the darkroom. “Notice how the water swirls in the tray. If you were south of the equader it would....” Lo and behold someone recently told me that was a stupid wife's tale. Like the origin of burros, the truth is not what one cowboy tells you.
—Kim Mosley
I Turned Out to Be Me
I could have been anything. I knew I wouldn't be tall, but I thought I could be a pro basketball player because the Globetrotters had players like Too Tall (5'2"). And during the baseball season I thought I could turn pro and become as good as any of my baseball heroes like Minnie Moñoso. I would just need to learn to hit the ball and a few other minor things. In fact, I could steal bases with vengeance. Which was useful since I often walked because I was so short that pitchers couldn't find my strike zone.
And then there was art. I had delusions of grandeur there too. No goal was too high—even the Sistine Chapel. Somehow I didn't have too many goals for my kids. My son had enough of his own (are kids having goals a guy thing?), while my daughter didn't seem to share so many of our ambitions. (Nevertheless, both kids have accomplished a lot.)
In our Zen Writing class, we read a poem about the poet’s hurt shoulder and how it impacted her rowing. I am reminded of all the things I can't do for one reason or another. Coming to terms with one limitations seem to be synomonous with getting old, or maybe I should say, getting older. Of course, one of the biggies is that I'm beginning to realize that I can't live forever. But beyond that, there are many things I can't or won't do because I either can't or I realize the consequences.
I used to believe I could fix anything in a house. My father-in-law could do that and he'd instruct me step-by-step. And then he'd grunt when I'd do something wrong. Now that he's not in Austin, I've hired some people to do stuff and discovered that their skill set is way beyond mine.
I sometime think I know a little about computers, but when I think of the knowledge ofvarious friendly geeks whom I know, I don't stand chance in their world. But I putter along and manage to keep things working.
I turned out to be me, I suppose. Yes, I turned out to be me. It was probably my last resort. It was what I'd become if nothing else worked out.
Some people have extraordinary talents. They can do anything. Fortunately or unfortunately, I can just be me. I wish I would have known that many years ago. Then I might not have spent so much energy trying to be someone else.
—Kim Mosley
Life Guidance
(the prompt for the evening was ʻButterflyʼ by Robert Graves)
How DID you get from there to here?
By guess, yes, by guess is best.
By should you could
By right you might
There is no map
Itʼs not a snap
A sharp turn may burn
As I could only slowly learn
Flying crooked covers ground
By good fortune, earth is round
Every story is unique
Read aloud, but do not peek
Chapter chapter, line by line
flying straight, flying blind
How DO you get from here to there?
By guess, YES, by guess is best.
—Bill Metz
How DID you get from there to here?
By guess, yes, by guess is best.
By should you could
By right you might
There is no map
Itʼs not a snap
A sharp turn may burn
As I could only slowly learn
Flying crooked covers ground
By good fortune, earth is round
Every story is unique
Read aloud, but do not peek
Chapter chapter, line by line
flying straight, flying blind
How DO you get from here to there?
By guess, YES, by guess is best.
—Bill Metz
Summer night, cool water calls
Swimming fast as pulse quickens
Slow down...Calm DownWhen fear enters mind.
Trees dance in the wind.
Grackles claim their place
on the wall--a place to rest.
Do I hear music far across the lake?
the band plays as nite falls.
Children laugh, a toddler falls;
a pause, then the screams.
The child turns to its mother.
Water wets, earth is solid,
each in its place,
like the front and back foot in walking.
Mercifully the sun sets
and the color of day softens.
Families drift away.
Swimmers stream along as
the water sounds.
Stroke, stroke, in breath & out breath
float—effortless—
no holding on, set free.
—Betty Gross
Snowed In
In my life I have several times
had the privilege to be snowed in.
To rise in the grey morning light
and look out the window to see
branches bent and coated with a
soft white covering of delicate
snow that tells you “be still!”.
I see the old green truck with a
white cake on its hood, its eyes
closed in deep slumber.
Stepping out to get more kindling for
the fire I hear, no, I feel the Intense
hush of the deep white blanket around
the cabin. Nothing is moving. It is a holy
moment.
Mother Nature has gently commanded
that I cease my human thrashings for a
day and surrender. She has said “Be still!
Contemplate. You have wood, you have
water, you have life. It Is enough for now.
You are snowed in.”
—Robert Porter
had the privilege to be snowed in.
To rise in the grey morning light
and look out the window to see
branches bent and coated with a
soft white covering of delicate
snow that tells you “be still!”.
I see the old green truck with a
white cake on its hood, its eyes
closed in deep slumber.
Stepping out to get more kindling for
the fire I hear, no, I feel the Intense
hush of the deep white blanket around
the cabin. Nothing is moving. It is a holy
moment.
Mother Nature has gently commanded
that I cease my human thrashings for a
day and surrender. She has said “Be still!
Contemplate. You have wood, you have
water, you have life. It Is enough for now.
You are snowed in.”
—Robert Porter
Inujima Island, Japan
Three Poems
Yellow Leaves, Blue Leaves
Yellow and blue
blend green,
seen in leaves
in grass and vine
until dying time,
and yellow
is left behind.
What leaves
with the blue,
leaving yellow leaves
to wither, fade,
and fall?
That breath of air,
that respiring
returns to sky,
blue again
to rise, raising water.
Water blue
to condense
into its kind,
then gravitate to brown,
to ground and seed,
albino cotyledons
blue tinged, yellow grown
metamorphosing,
seed into leaf,
blue into yellow
yellow into green.
A Flight of Birds
A flight of birds escapes
to the south under
flannel gray cloud waves,
a turn of nature I observe
in deep green reflections
traversing the automobile hood.
A cloud of feathers
festoons the antique rose,
sown in branches by a circling wind,
not blooms awaiting blossoming,
but pennants for a bird transmigrating.
Indian Spring
(In Houston, Not Where You Live)
spring fooled fall and
slipped among its foliage,
still lush from recent rain
washing winds, clear and cool
from cloudless blue,
rattle paper lantern blooms
bougainvillea blossoms quiver
carnelian on the deck,
magenta at the fence,
delicate pink azaleas
complement a hibiscus
coral corsage,
making old feel new —
too good to be true,
one week from another norther.
—Winston Derden is a former journalist, fiction writer, and poet who resides in Houston, Texas. His poetry appears in New Texas, the Houston Poetry Festival anthology 2010 and 2012, Words and Art, Harbinger Asylum, Pink-Eye Lemonade, Big River Poetry Review, and Illya’s Honey. He read on the 2013 Word Around Town tour and appears as a host and featured reader at Houston-area poetry readings.
Oh Almighty Oak
Oh Almighty Oak
With stately stillness, the branches from your trunk are like outstretched arms with palms facing upward.
This reminds me of that part in the Mass where the priests of my childhood stretched out their arms with palms facing towards heaven saying:
“Through him, with him, in him, in the unity of the Holy Spirit, all glory and honor are yours almighty Father, forever and ever, Amen.”
Oh Almighty Oak
You have been ordained and are anything but ordinary.
You are a high priest with low deep roots, a sacred configuration of branches above and below growing in two directions.
As above so below.
Oh Almighty Oak
The large bowl water fountain near your trunk forms circular patterns as it pulsates--a liquid labyrinth.
The birds baptize themselves and fly up to your branches to sing your praises.
All glory and honor is yours Almighty Oak, forever and ever, Amen.
—R.B. Bojan
With stately stillness, the branches from your trunk are like outstretched arms with palms facing upward.
This reminds me of that part in the Mass where the priests of my childhood stretched out their arms with palms facing towards heaven saying:
“Through him, with him, in him, in the unity of the Holy Spirit, all glory and honor are yours almighty Father, forever and ever, Amen.”
Oh Almighty Oak
You have been ordained and are anything but ordinary.
You are a high priest with low deep roots, a sacred configuration of branches above and below growing in two directions.
As above so below.
Oh Almighty Oak
The large bowl water fountain near your trunk forms circular patterns as it pulsates--a liquid labyrinth.
The birds baptize themselves and fly up to your branches to sing your praises.
All glory and honor is yours Almighty Oak, forever and ever, Amen.
—R.B. Bojan
Intention
Slowing, stopping, looking deeply
Turning towards stillness
Sensing source, sensing center.
Taking care, giving care
I am here for you;
I hear you.
We are here in the present moment. We have arrived.
So let us just sit back and let the breath lead us.
Let us just be here.
Let us just be aware.
Let us just be.
—R.B. Bojan
Turning towards stillness
Sensing source, sensing center.
Taking care, giving care
I am here for you;
I hear you.
We are here in the present moment. We have arrived.
So let us just sit back and let the breath lead us.
Let us just be here.
Let us just be aware.
Let us just be.
—R.B. Bojan
Centennial Rib Cage Oak Tree
The spreading wings of the centennial rib cage oak tree,
Planted prior to the house existing in an embryonic dream cluster,
Shelters paisley winged doves who occasionally cool off
In the bubbling brook, green moss stone rippled birdbath.
A green inch worm hovers,
Hangs as in a lotus position in the expansive undercurrent,
Suspended, absorbs the animated conversation of the two gardeners
Discussing the merits of creativity and how it must be
Carefully sustained in order to produce the ripened blossom
And meaningful tasting fruit, like the green leaf vegetables
Maturing in the deep dug adjacent plot.
—Rupert Hopkins
Ordaining the Big Oak Tree
We ordained the big oak tree tonight. I felt a little funny about being part of that ceremony. That beautiful old oak tree is kind of like a wood Buddha from the 12th century. It has been around far longer that we have, and has experienced many persuasions over the century(s) that it has lived.
What about its choice? Is this like the Mormons baptizing everyone and their brother? Do we have that right to determine what someone should believe? Should we even baptize a child? Are we regulating its mind before it has the ability to say boo?
Maybe I could sneak over to the tree some night and defrock it. I kind of liked the lack of preferences of that tree. How it reaches out in a myriad of directions giving love to all sentient beings, even those in a blade of grass mentioned in the sutra that we read at the ordination. Maybe, just maybe, that is what the tree is contemplating when it isn't struggling with challenging elements and people.
When I read this to my Zen Writing group, Bill pointed out that when the Zen center moved into our current temple that they saw that the tree was dying and both petitioned the city to move a sidewalk and changed the landscaping to give the tree more water. I started to feel that the tree might now have some major affinity with Zen. I hope so.
After our meeting, I spoke with Scott about the tree. He suggested that it might be a Buddhist for a while, but then, when its tenants change, it might adopt another persuasion. That sounds good to me.
This morning I found a paper on tree ordination in Thailand: http://tinyurl.com/m5tqzl9 Here is the abstract of the paper:
“Abstract: The symbolic ordination of trees as monks in Thailand is widely perceived in Western scholarship to be proof of the power of Buddhism to spur ecological thought. However, a closer analysis of tree ordination demonstrates that it is not primarily about Buddhist teaching, but rather is an invented tradition based on the sanctity of Thai Buddhist symbols as well as those of spirit worship and the monarchy. Tree ordinations performed by non-Buddhist minorities in Thailand do not demonstrate a religious commitment but rather a political one.”
In retrospect, I like that we ordained the tree. We take for granted much of our environment that treats us so well.
What about its choice? Is this like the Mormons baptizing everyone and their brother? Do we have that right to determine what someone should believe? Should we even baptize a child? Are we regulating its mind before it has the ability to say boo?
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| Photo by Scott Shaevel |
Maybe I could sneak over to the tree some night and defrock it. I kind of liked the lack of preferences of that tree. How it reaches out in a myriad of directions giving love to all sentient beings, even those in a blade of grass mentioned in the sutra that we read at the ordination. Maybe, just maybe, that is what the tree is contemplating when it isn't struggling with challenging elements and people.
When I read this to my Zen Writing group, Bill pointed out that when the Zen center moved into our current temple that they saw that the tree was dying and both petitioned the city to move a sidewalk and changed the landscaping to give the tree more water. I started to feel that the tree might now have some major affinity with Zen. I hope so.
After our meeting, I spoke with Scott about the tree. He suggested that it might be a Buddhist for a while, but then, when its tenants change, it might adopt another persuasion. That sounds good to me.
This morning I found a paper on tree ordination in Thailand: http://tinyurl.com/m5tqzl9 Here is the abstract of the paper:
“Abstract: The symbolic ordination of trees as monks in Thailand is widely perceived in Western scholarship to be proof of the power of Buddhism to spur ecological thought. However, a closer analysis of tree ordination demonstrates that it is not primarily about Buddhist teaching, but rather is an invented tradition based on the sanctity of Thai Buddhist symbols as well as those of spirit worship and the monarchy. Tree ordinations performed by non-Buddhist minorities in Thailand do not demonstrate a religious commitment but rather a political one.”
In retrospect, I like that we ordained the tree. We take for granted much of our environment that treats us so well.
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| Photo by Scott Shaevel |
Loving Things Equally
My father was able to love many things equally. He loved so many things that we had a two car garage that never had a car in it.
As a boy I would clamber around in the dark and dust and find things like ancient baseball gloves or WWII ribbons or patches. When I would trot something out, my father would tell me the story behind it, giving me glimpses into his life. The baseball glove for, instance, was his when he was young and athletic, wanting to try out for a team, but his father, my grandfather, who was a Methodist minister, forbade him because gambling had been associated with baseball and he didn’t want my father around it.
He still had his army uniform and mess kit from WWII, and he would tell me about his experiences of basic training and his different jobs as a staff sergeant. He was never in combat but saw a lot of the states by train while escorting AWOL soldiers back to their bases.
Each item had a story, even the old furniture of long dead relatives.
As he lay close to death in a hospital bed, he looked at me and said, “You know, I never got to clean the garage.” He was so sincerely regretful that I didn’t know whether to laugh or cry.
Now my garage is a museum of my past, my kid’s past, and, yes, even his past. I still have his uniform, some letters he wrote to my mother before they were married and his old slide projectors that he would use to torment us by showing vacation pictures on a sheet tacked on the dining room wall.
But you know, I can get a car in my garage-my wife’s!
—Robert Porter
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